Message from the Lord - June 3 afternoon

Here we go again. I was bathing in the sun with a desperate desire for the Lord when I heard Him speak these words to me. Again, I believe in my heart these words are to be sent out to those who need to hear them. (If you are looking for the "More from the Lord" message, please scroll down to the next blog entry. God's been keeping me busy......!)

Am I real? 
Do you not believe? 
I Am.
Do not forsake me as I shall not forsake thee.
They forsook all, but instead you forsake what I offer in the name of your gods.

More from the Lord - June 1 4:40 am

The Lord woke me up at 4:40 am on June 1 and surprised me with another powerful message. I thought I would share it in case it is for others also. I believe it is....Be blessed.

I have given you dreams of where I want you to be. But I have not told you where you are...

Go where I send you, not where you think you should be. Do not stay where you are for fear of where you are going. You have been holding on to places you have already been for fear. Instead of holding on why not let go and trust me. When you arrive where I send you, it is not as though you will arrive at an empty place. I have already ordained what I have planned for you to do. 

I Heard from the Lord

In the midst of a trying week for multiple reasons, including the loss of my Billie the Jack Russell after 15 years together, I was blessed and humbled last night to hear a very powerful message from the Lord. I wonder, is there anything in what I heard that might be for someone else also? I am led to share what I heard......

My Billie's in Heaven

My precious Billie's in heaven after 15 years together. Thank you God for our time together.

I love you Billie, forever.

So Close to Heaven

My sweet Billie, 15 years old, is so very close to heaven now. I have had him for 15 bittersweet years, bittersweet for many reasons. He has lived a bunch of those years with his beagle sister Beckles with Speckles. For the first time ever, they were snuggled up together as Billie was obviously looking for a place of rest and comfort as he moves step by slow step to heaven. Why does it seem that it sometimes takes times of pain and suffering for us to realize it's time to seek a place of refuge? God offers a resting place, yet I can honestly say sometimes I seem to have to wear myself into the ground before I realize - and surrender to - the need to lean back on His everlasting arms. I am in such a similar place right now, only I have not yet done what my precious Billie has - settled down and taken rest in the comfort that awaits.....

Lord, I have fallen so far short in loving my Billie the way you have called me to do. These have been challenging years, and so many times I did not walk in the love you desire. And so many times, Billie didn't behave himself the way he should have. But Lord, in this final time together on earth that Billie and I have, I pray you would bless us both with your comfort, with your love, with your resting place, and with your forgiveness. Thank you for giving me another chance with Billie - a chance to love as you have called me. Love, me. 

Calm Before the Storm

My Three-Day Internet Fast

I will have no Internet or e-mail access on May 22, 23, & 24. If you need to reach me with anything of an important nature, please call me at 843-338-2219. My three-day Internet Fast, I am quite sure, will be a wonderful opportunity to seek the Lord and His will as I press forward in my life where He is calling me. Please keep me, Walk by Faith Ministry, and our very special dogs in your prayers. Thank you & God bless you!

Jesus Lied

Jesus lied. Didn't He? He loved, so He must have lied. Right? Doesn't love lie? Doesn't love make people feel good? Jesus lied to show people love, right? As I regard the world around me, I see people increasingly lying to love. Huh?

Angry at God

Ever been angry at God? I am. I finally figured it out this morning. I have been really angry at God. So I did something I learned a long time ago. I told Him. I did not slam the door in His face as I did with my family as I child. I went straight to Him and poured out my heart to Him.

I'm Not Like Everyone Else

I'm not like everyone else, and today, finally, at last, and it's been a long, long time coming, I'm okay with that. I'm okay not being like you; I'm okay being me. I realized recently I've had an autoimmune dis-ease of sorts; I've rejected myself for decades because I was different. I was different because stuff happened to me as a kid that didn't happen to everyone around me. I was different because I'm creative. I'm different because I don't fit into the pack too well.

They Stand with Me

They stood with me. They stand with me. Yesterday, as I found myself unexpectedly reading a heart-wrenching, transparent, self-revealing piece of writing before the National Day of Prayer gathering at my local Town Hall, I found myself not only wrapped within the wings of the arms of the Lord, but I discovered I was accompanied by a humble man of God with the presence of mind to know I did not have the strength to share my testimony with the gathering of people alone. So the same man of God who prompted by the Lord led me to read my writing with the gathering planted his feet next to me and made sure I knew I was not alone. Then, it happened. Just as surprisingly as I found myself reading into a microphone from the deepest recesses of my heart, I found myself surrounded by not just one witness standing with me. Another humble man of God stepped forward to stand with me. When the third witness of God walked up to stand with me, my already trembling voice, my already heart-in-awe of what the Lord had done in organizing all this, broke.

The Hug that Came from Heaven

My brother in the Lord wrapped his arms around me a few days ago and refused to let go. Even when I tried to get outside of his hold as I have done for years when somebody hugs me, he refused to release me. Even when he felt my resistance that comes from years of battling the haunting of having been sexually abused, he held me even harder. Even though he knew I have been abandoned by my father, my family, and two husbands, he did not turn away. He just clung closer, he strengthened his grip on me, he fought for me to receive from him, and he carried on with his endeavor. I carried on with my mission, too. I felt the fear I have felt for so very long - what will he do to me? What will he take from me? When will I discover this place in his hold isn't safe? It will all go away. I will be left, broken and barren. Abandoned again. My brother in the Lord used every ounce of strength he has, every ounce of love he knows, every ounce of tenacity, to never let go. He opened up his arms only when he knew with certainty I would walk out of his embrace with knowing something I have never really, truly, known, believed, and understood.

Me & Jesus - TOGETHER

"Hope you and God are still writing," my precious friend wrote me in an e-mail this morning. I was so blessed by the e-mail in its entirety that I missed the message the Lord had sent me through my dear friend. When I read it again hours later - after striving unsuccessfully in my flesh yet again - I got the message. My friend, a beautiful babe in the Lord, is so very humble and wise. She knew I would never make it anywhere in my writing without the Lord. So she became a vessel of honor for the Lord to use to remind me. Me & Jesus - together.

So You're Not Perfect.

So you're not perfect. Neither am I. In fact, I'm so far from perfect - even as a Christian, yes! - that I can barely fathom what the word even means. Thank God, He has placed a pastor, and friend, a man of God, in my life who is teaching me how okay it is to not be perfect.

My Blank Screen Life

Some writers love a blank screen. Imagine all the possibilities. Some writers cringe at the thought. What could they possibly write? When I considered returning to my computer after lunch today, I had just an iota of dread about returning to my latest writing project. Where would I go next with it - or not? But then I considered my life, and thought about how different my life might be if only I had a blank screen life. But alas, at 44 years old, my life is anything but a blank screen.

Don't Expect the Best

Ever heard the expression, "Expect the Best'? I have not only heard the expression numerous times, but I have fallen flat on my face from expecting the best - from humans. In fact, I just shared with someone I know how disappointed I have been lately in how many of my expectations have not been met - by people, by the way. And therein lies the problem.

Listen, Debate, and Obey

Listen, debate, and obey. God did not speak these words to me today. He told me to listen and obey. I have such a very long way to go in learning to listen, and an equally long way it seems in learning to obey. But most of all, I need to learn how to listen and obey without debating.

Far Away from God

Have you ever felt far away from God? I do. I have heard it said, "God didn't move. You did." I know God hasn't moved. But I am not sure I have moved either. I am reminded that the faith walk is not about what we see with our human eyes or what we feel with our human emotions. So maybe I am not far away from God at all. Maybe just like He hasn't moved away, I haven't either. Maybe I am merely responding to my emotions rather than walking according to what I believe. How do I feel? Far away from God. What do I believe? That is a good question. For a woman who has spent most of her life living according to what she sees and feels, it still is a challenge for me to walk according to what I know. What I know above all else right now is this. I do not want to be far away from God at all. I want to be so close to Him, to know His presence so greatly, that there is no separation at all. And, it is with this thought, that I turn once again to His Word.


Rom 8:35 KJV  "Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
Rom 8:36  As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.
Rom 8:37  Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
Rom 8:38  For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
Rom 8:39  Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

I'm Under Attack DUH

I'm under attack. I'm under attack. I'm under attack. Yes, I know I'm repeating myself. I might as well repeat myself in writing. I certainly have repeated myself verbally - for years. I'm under attack. I'm under attack. I know. You get the point. So do my friends who have prayed for me for so very long. They have prayed for me for years as I have sustained - rarely gracefully, mind you - attacks from Satan. They have also reminded me - lovingly - that I need to focus on the Lord rather than Satan, the defeated foe. Yet only this morning did I really get it. I truly had a DUH moment. Of course I'm under attack. I'm in a war. That's what happens in wars. Why wouldn't Satan attack? People don't go to war to enjoy the peace. They go to fight the battle. Satan is angry, and he is on the attack. He attacks God's children. He especially attacks God's children who are sold out to loving and serving God. We, after all, are the greatest threat to Satan. So why should I be surprised, like an innocent victim who can't fathom that Satan would attack once again? I shouldn't be surprised. I should be excited. Why? I have yet another opportunity to demonstrate the victory I have through faith in Jesus Christ. And, as my friends have reminded me, I should not focus on Satan's darkness. I should stay in the light where I belong - with Jesus. 

Mercy's Wheelchair Needs Miracle!

Mercy has been riding at such high speeds in her wheelchair that her wheel popped right off yesterday! Now she is waiting for a very special person who made the wheelchair in the first place to come to her rescue. In the meantime, she is patiently - well, sort of - laying low while she awaits the big fix....

But God I Don't Wanna Love

But God I don't wanna love. Ever been there? He hurt me. She hurt me. I didn't get what I want. I was taken advantage of. Look what they did to me. C'mon God, surely I don't need to love that person. Right? But God - I was there again this morning. How could that person do this? What about me? Me, me, me. Imagine if God said that about us. Imagine if God stopped loving us because of the mistakes we keep on making. Imagine if God stopped loving us because of all we have done wrong. Imagine if Jesus Christ had not gone to the cross because He didn't get what He wanted, because the world was too broken, because our sins were too grievous. Just imagine. Now imagine if we all stopped loving. If the truth be told, much of the world isn't doing such a good job of loving, is it? But the world isn't just them. The world is also us - including me, me, me. How good a job are we doing in loving others? Is our love conditional? But God -

That Pastor Is Crazy

"That man is crazy," I thought. "Totally crazy." That man, I confess, just so happens to be a wonderful pastor friend of mine from a local church. And not only did I think the man was crazy, but I told him just minutes ago over the telephone. "I thought you were crazy," I told the pastor. Crazy? Who are you calling crazy?

Life After Obedience

Obedience is not the be-all, end-all that I thought it was, or is it? It certainly is not. Just last week, I thought I had hit the home run of all runs - not that I know the first, or second, or even third thing about baseball. But suffice it to say, I did believe since I had achieved the ultimate victory when I found in several weeks time that I had surrendered the two big areas of my life I had so rebelliously been holding back from God. I could not have been more elated, more relieved, and yes, more convinced that I was headed for the vacation, and celebration, of all vacations. Not so. Not even close.

Message from the Lord - Part 3

I entered into my time listening to the Lord this morning believing that perhaps His words to me today would be for me alone, but have the sense yet again that I am to share them publicly in case they are meant for someone else also.

Message from the Lord - PART TWO

Just in case the Lord's message to me this morning might be for someone also, I decided to publish what He spoke into my heart. This is PART TWO in the messages I have been receiving from Him regarding my journey out of Egypt and into the Promised Land. Yesterday, I posted PART ONE.